Many of us cast doubt into ourselves on whether we can do something, or not. Whether this is something that stems from our past or childhood is not what matters. What matters is that we become mindful and aware that we can do anything we put our minds and our hearts to. For we are all limitless, we are a product of something infinite and so the only boundaries that are in place are the boundaries that were set before us at some stage. Break through those boundaries, fear not the unknown for it may very well be the unknown that carries you to untold successes.
This evening on walking to where I am currently staying my mind was seriously active and was thinking about everything, literally everything was flashing through my mind – past, present and future. One of the problems I have always had, and I believe it must be a problem we all have is I have a proclivity of focusing too much on the past and the future…but seldom the present, the present I do think of is thinking how miserable I am feeling, a negative feeling bound to breed negativity as I went from being a bit more jovial than I have recently to thinking of happier times and wanting them back which made me miserable rather than happy, I mean…seriously. Aren’t happy memories supposed to be there to make us happy when we think of them?
I was thinking on what is going on within myself now and my physical fitness from the past. The fittest I have ever been, for purpose has been in my adult life in my twenties (the fittest I was as a kid was on the farm in Zimbabwe, but then I had no goals or purpose, I was a kid). If you have been following my blog for a while you will have seen in this post that I had been in the process of joining the British Army as a commonwealth applicant. This was in 2006, a year after I had come to the UK and after I attended my army presentation at ACIO (Army Careers Information Office) in Aldershot I put myself through an intensive PT programme – using training techniques I learnt from my father in my youth who had been a member of the elite Fire Force of One Commando, the Rhodesian Light Infantry. I conditioned myself and focused. It was the fittest I have ever been in my adult life as I had a goal and that was to join the most senior English line regiment, the Princess of Wales’s Royal Regiment, 2nd Battalion (2PWRR) I reached my peak fitness of being able to run 1.5 miles in seven minutes without breaking a sweat and the time limit being way below the allowed maximum for infantry selection. I disciplined and conditioned myself. I worked on my martial arts (taekwondo & judo), and worked on my upper and lower body – not only did I focus on my physical attributes but also educational and studied religiously for my BARB test (British Army Recruitment Battery) which is what shows you where you are best suited. I did the practice test so many times and studied so much that I opened everything up (in theory) from infantry to trade regiments and corps to Intelligence Corps, to Royal Military Police, although I was focused on the infantry. I was focused and while I was so focused and conditioned, as well as determined to reach my goal my emotional status was also at its peak, I was never stunted and always had something to work towards. Anyone who has spent any time with me continuously since 2006 will tell you I was focused, self-disciplined and motivated. To cut a long story short the Army ended up not happening for me due to circumstances beyond my control, I however didn’t stop trying for years. There have even been times where I have decided to try elsewhere and as I speak a little French maybe try the Légion Étrangère (French Foreign Legion), but sadly again bureaucracy getting in my way as the requirements have changed somewhat and they are now a professional army, unlike in decades gone by. But my years of being a soldier have passed me by, now.
In 2014 however I found a better me and that version of myself that I discovered grew and grew, helped along by an awesome part of my life who saw the best in me, it was a version that has obviously always existed as I had discovered how to get out of my own way. Somehow. I then returned to my fitness and became the most toned I have ever been in my adult life. Whilst I was training for the Army in 2006 I do not recall having become as toned as I did. But anyway, that all does sound vain, I must admit but what I am meaning was its fitness that helped unlock all that, both times. Actually, what helped 2014 and make me reevaluate life was a breakdown Christmas time 2013. But then I worked towards a better me and was helped along. Now I kind of feel I am slipping backwards, in a bad way, though some of it is self-imposed for what I feel is self preservation, but in an unhealthy way. Maybe time to apply some breaks and find that other version of myself but make it a better version.
And so earlier this evening I am walking along thinking about EVERYTHING, almost like…you know how you hear of people who have had near death experiences and their whole life has flashed before them? Almost like that but things from over the last few years, including me training to join the Army. And I realised something about all of us, myself included. I have been getting in my own way. A while ago I purchased a book by American singer, song writer, author, actor and motivational speaker, Tyrese Gibson entitled How to Get Out Of Your Own Way. And though I haven’t read the book yet, asides from reading the incredible introduction have realised something – that is the problem, I have been getting in my own way and whilst it is easy to let life do this to us maybe that is the key, we all, at some point or another get in the way of our own progress.
But, physical conditioning being a key to motivation due to the endorphins that are released into the brain at any given time we are doing any personal training and endorphins not only reducing our perception of pain but also trigger positive feelings in the body – I have never taken drugs but I imagine it is the same thing, once you exercise more the better the feeling and the more endorphins are released the more PT you crave making it a habit. To me that is the healthiest drug out there.
Are you struggling at the moment too? Do you feel that certain things are setting you back? Is there a version of yourself that you liked and would like back but an even better version? A better version for ourselves, our friends, our family, our loved ones. A better version for the future.
I will leave this in your hands to find what will work for you. If you know of someone who is struggling, or if you are and have found this post to help you and feel that it might somehow help someone else. Please send it on.
Many of you who may have been visiting the website and seeing the update posts on remodelling the blog etc but nothing thereafter and must be wondering ‘okay, so what on earth is happening exactly?’ All I can ask of you is to be patient with me. I have some personal stuff that I am working through which makes it difficult to focus on other stuff, at the same time as wanting to be able to give this a large amount, or portion of my time. It is just kinda hard to work on something when you have so much else going on, especially when that stuff is kind of stunting progress on much else. That includes my screenwriting course which I have not even started since I posted about that in March.
My plans reference GTBG remain the same as the last post, nothing has really changed at all. Nothing will appear in Media until I have taken the necessary steps which is why there is nothing in it. I have a passion for photography and want to start vlogging as a part of this page which is what the media tab will be for. My content designer and I are also continuously working on the page and so for those who visit on a regular basis who see new changes pretty much all the time at the moment and changes in themes and backgrounds, I am however, for the time being pretty set on it. So a big thank you to those people who have mentioned that they like the background images.
As mentioned before I also have a passion for the wild mustang causes and their persecution in the US by the Bureau of Land Management and the US government with several bills signed by Donald Trump already threatened by the BLM. But from my research let no rancher or farmer tell you that the presence of the wild mustangs threaten grazing for their cattle or other livestock. Anyone can do any amount of research to see that this is not entirely factual. The question will be from many people – friends and family and others who know I am a; not an American and b; not Stateside and indeed people who do not know me. The reason why is to me, and this is my personal opinion is those of us horse people have an obligation to protect them, that has been their territory since before Western Europeans got to the Americas as they were initially introduced to the Americas by the Spanish, the original name being Mustango. Silly argument? Nope, not really because they are not a threat to anyone who says they are a threat to them.
The wild mustang has been a passion that has long existed since I was a child and my passion and interest in the “Wild West” which may explain why I loved my horses in Zimbabwe and the wide open spaces. I know that many people still visualise the freedom that the Wild West gave, whether as homesteaders, wanderers, gunslingers, travelling lawmen and guns for hire or mere cowboys. The imagination that it still provides us all can never be replaced – it is the mustangs that have carried us through those dreams, it is the mustang that has carried me through my dreams to date and that is what this blog is being partly remodelled on, well, a large part of it. Not my dreams though but the mustangs.
So please, if you are visiting daily and referring people and sharing my content do not be put off by the lack of content – I will get to the stage where I will be continually creating new content, like computer game streamers who continuously update their game content for their followers and others seeking their entertainment. That is where I intend to get to with this page. Though writing an eight hour piece might be a bit difficult as a blogger/vlogger.
Language and culture, those of us who have a greater understanding of language and culture beyond our own are truly gifted. That has been my interpretation of being multilingual for ages due to the fact that I speak one other language fluently, other than my own and speak notions of four other languages (French, Italian, Spanish, Polish) and can say a few words in Chinese and Arabic. I truly envy those who speak twelve languages fluently. However, my belief is that to understand culture is of more importance, and why? My reasoning with that is simple – we get to understand each other a lot better.
I have harboured a belief since I was in my early twenties that we can can all create an understanding of one another through an understanding of each others culture, wherever we are from. Whilst I have lived in the UK I have met people from all four corners of the globe. I have met people from Central and Eastern Europe, people from Italy, Spain France and Belgium, made friends with peoples from Poland, America, Argentina, El Salvador. I have made friends with people from Pakistan to Algeria. And though I have an Argentinian friend that I went to school and worked with in Zimbabwe I started to pick up Spanish from he and his family. Some of my cousins had a Belgian background and so started to pick up French from them. But my understanding of language & culture never really took off until I came to the UK. That is one of the beauties of the United Kingdom, its broad spectrum of different cultures and backgrounds.
I am no lingual genius, I do however wish I was but being able to speak the notions I do is gift enough but had I carried on with my Polish course I would be able to speak Polish fluently. But this is where I think the ultimate respect for other nationalities come from. Although I do believe that an understanding of another religion, other than my own helps. I do not believe that is where the ultimate in understanding and acceptance comes from – it primarily comes from language & culture.
So at the end of the day what is your understanding of the key to humanity, acceptance and understanding?
This post totally goes against what I have remodelled this site on but I think this is an important part of who we all are and who we should be.
So yesterday I wrote a piece about remodelling my blog and that I’ll be making some changes. The changes to come will include aesthetic changes but also changes to the navigation of the site.
I have also done away with some things. If you have acquainted yourself with the menu section you will have seen a tab for my writing and reviews, as I will be creating a whole new website niche to writing I have removed that. I have also removed reviews, I have been focusing on the monetisation aspects without focusing on my passions. Passion is where the ultimate skill comes from and this is demonstrated through horsemen like Chris Cox and Buck Brannaman, as their passion in their horsemanship shines through everything they do with and for their horses and their community. It also shines through visionaries like Steve Jobs and Richard Branson through their brands.
There will be other things that will be added in the greater scheme of things.
Just keeping you all posted on thoughts on the direction I’m wanting to take this…